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wow_freak2011
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Name: wow_freak2011
Location: Cincinnati, Ohio, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: Art, body modifications, caffeine, music, and World of Warcraft.
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Member Since:
1/15/2006
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| "You promised me the moon and stars. I fell for your dreams. I fell for your lies! There was no other way. You know I tried."
My relationship is over. I think I need to end this blog, too. They were both well overdue...
Thank you for letting me spill my guts to you every time I needed to. But it's time to move on from my past.
The worst thing is, I thought I could make it last. If I just went there and he just came here, and he just waited, I swore we could have made this last...
Goodbye, childhood blog/friend/boyfriend/love. This heart needs to heal.
"This union - a battle fought and lost. This union - was not about the cause. This union - was never about love."
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| I hid my money from myself... Let's hope I can find it in three weeks. <3
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| I never stopped loving you. I never said I did. I said I didn't know. It was confusing and you didn't seem to love me anymore. I cried for you every day and then I went numb. I regret saying I don't know every day. You have always had my heart. And I can never take it back and you will always hold it over my head. And you have all the right to.
I'm sorry I murdered our love. I really wish I could take it back, because you're right. you haven't been the same or felt the same and it will never be the same. I just wish I could convince you that I do and always have and always will love you like I have since I was a little girl.
You're my only one, baby. I just want you to know I'm yours again. I'll do whatever it takes to turn this around. I know what's at stake and I know I let you down. I'll keep us together whatever it takes. Remember every time I said I'd be lost without you and never find myself. I want to start over, erase that from your memory.
I know you cant forgive me, but for what its worth, I am eternally sorry. | | |
| I'm home now. 21 days until he's here for three weeks. I had fun in Milwaukee. The only downside is that I hate this shit hole more than ever now.
My comp is fucked up so I'm doing this on my Nook. Sorry for any errors I don't catch.
Things are complicated. It was fine until we had that conversation. I thought things were perfect. I should have agreed to go out more often, though. I was just trying to look out for him. He had work. He's s big boy though and we should have had more fun. I swear I'm not as boring as I may seem. Then again, I guess if I have to defend that fact, maybe I am that boring.
Either way, I don't even feel content just sitting in my room now. He reminded me what I used to be and how much fun I used to have. I want to get a hold of Sarah.
I need to figure out how to change myself. All I hear is how awkward I am and backward and I want to be all that he needs and wants. That's hard work.
And my crazy ass can't get it out of my head that he said he wants other women. I should be the only one. Bastard. I'm an amazing woman and he's lucky to have me, just like I'm lucky to have him. I love him. And I trust him. It just got under my skin.
Going back to school tomorrow. I have two Fs and a D. I need to concentrate. | | |
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